I realise while I sit here writing this that I haven’t shared much of my first three months experiences with you guys, nor have I told you more things about William and the fact our lives dramatically changed the day Alice was born.
She’s currently asleep in her cot and every few minutes I am having to rush over and stick that dummy back in her mouth. Training Alice to go to sleep without me cuddling her is becoming a challenge. It’s my own fault of course! For the first month or so I barely let her leave my side. So I’ve only myself to blame.
She’s been sleeping in her cot going on nearly two weeks now and so far she has been doing rather well, aside from waking me at 4am for a bum change.
Parenthood is becoming a normal part of me now. I still get days as I’m sure do most mums where you look back and remember how much freedom you had to just grab your car keys, phone a few mates and off you went on an adventure. Now it’s a mission just to go do the weekly food shop (online deliveries are the best!)
If you were to ask me two years ago what I thought my life was going to be I’d tell you this…
Full of adventures and weekend camping trips with good friends. Summers filled with weddings & photoshoots. Late night beach fires surrounded by your group of friends as you laugh and swap silly stories and discussions. Random drives to no where just to spend sometime somewhere else.
William and I use to be out all hours of the night during the first few months of our relationship. We would spend hours on the car just chatting, listening to music and just being ourselves together.
But, when I saw that little red line appear on that test I remember thinking how I was going to tell Will. Was my life about to stop and would it become something completely different? What was my new boss going to be like? How were my parents going to react? Or Wills?
A lot of questions went through my mind that day. It was the scariest day of my life but also the happiness. By the afternoon I had already accepted that I was going to be a mother and thought of how lucky I was that this little one was growing inside me.
Do I miss those chances of just going out without a care in the world? Of course I do. Do I regret how my life is now? Dear God of course I don’t!
Having Alice has indeed changed my life but it’s made me a better person. I am more caring of others, I am more passionate about achieving my goals, I know what an early bedtime is now and she has made Will and I stronger in more ways than one.
The reason I am telling you all this is because I understand and get it! And I am not ashamed to say yes I have thought my life would have been different, yes I do miss the way things were but do I regret how my life is now? Never!
Never feel bad because you miss the past. Just enjoy the present and build a better future.
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